Being an Adult

 Hello everyone.

I wanna talk about being an adult. This year, insyaallah I will turn 24th , I have already finish my degree last year. Now, I join paid internship by kemnaker. It has been 2 months since I started the internship, but I still adapting with this new-life. Honestly, I still thinking about what if I get another job, because I don't feel comfy and enjoy running this. I know this is not should be, outside many people want to pass this job, but how can I do this job, while I'm not enjoy it. Many things, that makes me feel uncomfortable. Every monday to friday I should act like this. I have to hold my dizziness. from 8am to 4pm I work in front of the laptop that cause I'm getting dizzy.

Everyday and every morning taht I have to have say I want to resign, but I have to responsible whit this job and my self. If I do that, who's will pays my bills? With what I can go travelling if I don't have a job. I only need the money so I should obeyed.

 I realize that being an adult it's mean you should responsible with your self, everythings that connect to yourself. I miss my school era, It's always in my mind. If I can go back, I will choose and try so hard to get what I want and what I'm dream of. And I'll ensure that I'll not hesitate running this adult life. I just can't believe that I'm here today, starting my career with internship. 4 months left, andI have to keep until the day. I respectfull all this employee, they are nice but sometimes we were just not good for each other. 

Maybe If I had just keep my self and more study hard I wouldn't here today. Maybe now I would working in a hBut, I trying to believe and keep this word " What's for you it will find you" also in my religion said that "Kalau sudah takdir akan untukmu". 

Writing while sitting in the office and waiting for my next job.